I like to think that meditation has helped me get more in tune with my feelings. It prompts me to stop and ask questions like “why am I nervous?” or “do I really want McDonalds or am I frustrated with work?”. Your first instinct is no longer the be-all-end-all that you presume it is. You’re forced to look a little deeper.
Today I have no reason to be nervous — I’m going to Vancouver for my first comic con. I’ll be selling Crumbs at the con and at a film festival. I’ve also prepared stickers and business cards. At the end of the month I’m going to an animation conference in Toronto. It is all in the name of making cartoons — It feels like I’m taking responsibility over something I really want.
Which also means that if I fail I’ll have to face the consequences.
It’s easy to fail at something you don’t care about. But failing at something that you really want… well, it’s often easier to never even try (or to try for peripheral things).
So I guess that’s why I’m nervous.